Alright. Somethins up. Nothins felt right for a while. Like i feel weird about doin goodnights and its mostly becase im just not payin attention to You. This limbo is ridiculous. Like one minute im ready to save the world and then next i hardly care. I dont understand. Im scared of whats goin on with me. I dont think im doin this just to do somethin. I think its real. I think the way i feel is real. Its hypocracy. Its evil? Its 'sin invading my habit patterns' and crap like that. Im disenchanted with alot of stuff and people. I think its wrong that im just waiting for this summer to come along so i can get on some high.