So, God. Heres some things:
Abbies dad
Nikki G
Elizabeth (and that crazy song)
Brother (hes still kinda sick)
Brother (BECAUSE HIS CHILD IS DUE SOON :] >)
The fast.
Safety. Just for people in general. Kids are crazy.
The future. Because its scary, Ya know?
Jennie. Because i love her. :]
*rest
*string
*chacos
*the fast!
*a new year
i cant believe 2009 is over. Like i dont even know whats happened this year, its gone so fast. But thanks for a darn great one. So mannnny memories. I liked it alot.
*surviving Y2K! Haha
*friends
*the future
*goodnights
*people
*LOVE.
Amen :]

Health
Abbies dad.
Travel.
People
Christmas.
Peace.
Matt.
Life
More health.
CHT.
Thank You.
Amen

So many things to talk about. FIRST off: RETREATREUNION. IT WAS AMAZING. You gave me, Biscuit and Grace such a ridiculous opportunity to change people in even just a tiny way, forgotten morning watches and worships or not. I hope we made some kind of impact on someone, because it made an impact on me. Like the fact that kids our age can just come together like that (thanks to You) and have an absolutely amazing time like that is astounding to me. Ill never forget that weekend. Life changing for sure. SECONDLY: EXAMS. Ugh. Senior year. Almost through with 1st semester. Im not sure how i feel about that. Help us poor seniors. Wish us luck. THIRDLY: dear, dear JP. I love that boy so much. And hes so utterly confused. Put that child on the right path. Pleaseeeee. And be with other people and their strange relationships as well. FOURTH: saftey and sanity. be with a certain someone as he comes back from a certain somewhere tomorrow :]] be with Sara on her last few days abroad and get that child home safely. Be with the future. Jennies, Emilys, mine. You know how we are. Discernment fosho would be much appreciated. MUCH. I love you.

IM TOTALLY FRAZZLED!! Between the amount of work ive been putting off this week and the retreat this weekend im kinda freakin out. I mean what was i thinking saving all this reading for this late? On top of a humanities paper (which, i know, im excited about but ive missed so much class time on it!) and making sure ive got EVERYTHING for this paper. And the reunion. Im worried. Were not gonna have enough food or the worships are gonna fall apart or tons of people are gonna be reallly mad about shortening it or some other complete fiasco. Who knows? So im givin this all to You. Theres absolutely NO WAY i can do it. Oh God, i know Youve got my back, thank You SO MUCH for that. I need it alot this week. I love you

I understand its been a while, and im sorry. I could give lots of bad excuses, but You know all of then already. So thank You for this day of rest. I needed it so badly. But help me catch up quickly. Ugh. And be with this dang college thing. Help it all work out to your glory. I dont know exactly what to think about it. And be with Chris not to hate on MTSU so much. That was disheartening. Sickness are yuck. Thank You so much for progressive dinner last night. It was ridiculous crazy fun. Where there is class of 2010, there is singing and i love that and them so immeasurably much. Be with friends and family and coldness and the retreat and the concert on monday and tech. I need to do this more, i know. I love you.

God.... We cant find Sam. Help us to do so quickly. May she be safe and sound, not a scratch. I love her. Im worried sick. Be with her family. Theyre freakin out. We love her. Help us find her.

So suddenly everything is flipped upside down. People in serious relationships suddenly break up. People struggle with sexuality. People struggle with God. Research papers are just jerks. Suddenly everything seems to be kinda thrown at me at once. Help of know Youre here

Its been auite a montha sundays since ive had time to do this. Which is like the worst excuse ever, i know. But really. With play and school and play and school, theres really noooo time for anything else. No lie. So basically, this has been a stressful time as of late. However, the other night, Abbie convinced me that stress and worry are soooo not worth it. I love that kid. Like she ALWAYS make me feel like a superhero. No matter whats goin on. Thank You for puttin her in my life. Shes makin a difference.

Well hello, Jesus. :] so tonight, i was talking to Abbie and we were talkin about the derth in goodnight generating from OONCE lately. Its troubling me. I want those kids to be able to see you so bad. :/ and i know we all have slumps, and i know we dont all have alot of time to get on facebook and type a message about it, but i pray that soon those girls will find You and find the time. Those were the highpoint of my day sometimes. But help it all to work for Your KAVOD :] Help this phone call with Hope tomorrow to be somethin. Im pumped for it. I was pumped that she suggested the calling part. Its that big of a deal. I wanna talk this out with somebody that is currently/just had been feeling the same way about 'worshipping' Lakeshore. Im glad Jennie reminded me that Hope had had the same issue this summer and that Hopes willing to talk about it with me. Thank you for BADLER!!!!! I cant wait to see him! Were all SO happy that that all went well. Youre the greatest, no lie. I love You. Aaaaamen.

Thank You, God for Mama Duck. Amen.

God, help me put things in their place. Help me remember that its not about me, its not about us, its not about lakeshore, its not about singin pretty, its not about bein the best. Its about You. Help me to put to practice what i believe and think. Help me not to be the biggest hypocrite i know. I wanna stop. I wanna stop planning too far in advance. I wanna stop trying to be in charge of the future. I wanna stop talking so much. I wanna stop complaining. I wanna stop gossiping. I wanna stop all this worldly junk ive got going on and i wanna focus on You. Bahhhh. Help me be what i gotta be for You.

Abba Father, help us. Help us to bring Your kingdom. Use us and move our hearts to live and move and work and be and beat all for You. We want to go to the corners, the recesses of this globe, this world and do what You need us to. Make us, mold us into whatever we need to be for You. You are the mightiest, the holiest that there has ever been or ever will be. Remind us of that and help us do to Your will. (be with Jacob as he has roommate problems and help it to all work out the way You want it to.) We love You. Amen

Sorry its been a while.
You are Lord of lords, King of kings, You are Mighty God, Lord of everything. Youre Emmanuel, Youre the Great I Am, Youre the Prince of Peace who is the Lamb. Youre the Living God, Youre my Saving Grace, You will reign forever. You are Anceint of Days. You are „, …, Beginning and End. Youre my Savior, Messiah, Redeemer and Friend. Youre the Prince of Peace and I will my life for You. Amen. :]

ABBA Father, You are holy. The end. Help us, Your children, to further your kingdom and be content with Your plans and Your will. You already give us all we need and help us not to take what Youve given us for granted. You always forgive us and love us and help us to show the same compassion to others. You always protect us because You are love. Be with me tomorrow as I fast. Help me to get what i need to get out of it what i need. Help me to do it for the right reasons. Help me to appreciate that which i have and never take it for granted. We love you. Amen

Oh God. Where to begin? You are the most holy, supreme, ever ruling, great, wonderful, powerful, eternal, immortal, most perfect thing that has ever been. And Youve ALWAYS been and You ALWAYS will be. May Your kingdom, Your way of life, Your praise, Your will come and be done. May everything we do be for Your awesome KAVOD. You always provide us with what we need, all of us, all the time. We ask that You would continue to give us simply what we need and help us to realize we simply need what we need to live simply. You know the plans You have for us, so help us to pick the right path in our "Choose Your Own Adventure" books that our lives help us to live for You. Forgive us where we have done wrong. Help us not to settle for this halfway trying but not really at being better people thing. Show us the way to be better people and help us to forgive like we should, as You know its not the easiest thing for us. We know that Youll never put us in the devils path, but when he jumps in our way, guide us around him as much as we need to be guided but help us also to roll with the punches that life and the devil blow us. Be with Suzanne and her family as today they lost their beloved Grandmother. Let them be comforted by the fact that shes with You now and help them to rejoice in Your salvation and love and Your begotten son that has made it possible for us to get to You. Be with Ashley and Taylor as they are seeing some relationship issues lately. Be with Lee tomorrow and may he travel safely. (and my dad, if hes comin home). Be with my dear friends that are off in other places and such, whether it be across the sea, or just the state, keep them safe and help them be what they gotta be for you. Be with Jennie and Tiffany as they plan for their big ideas to further Your kingdom. Be with Jennie as she wants so badly to do whatever she has to where ever she is to live for You. Thank you for what shes been in my life and what Youve led her to be to me and everyone that knows her. Shes surely one of your most beautiful creations. Thank you for hammocks and homecoming and friends and everything thats made this week great thank you for what we did in a cappella today. It was a straight up blessing and exactly what we all needed. Be with Marlon and Rachel as they also lost a family member this past week. Be with all Your children and help us all to do Your will.

We love You, ABBA Father. Amen

God, Youve changed my plans. So heres to something new. Heres to doors opened and breezes blowing; take me where You need. Blow this mist around and make me into whatever i gotta be for You. Ah! Mighty God, i cant imagine Your powers, yet You waste them on me! Youve purposely put people in my life that have changed me and i dont even know how much. This summer was such a time for transformation (Jesus Transforms!!) for me. Im reading my Bible, ive got this prayer blog going, im still doin goodnights with three different groups of people and that keeps me looking for You every day. Near and far, i know i have friends that care about me so much, so much that theyve made sure that im prepared for this crazy, messed up world. Where would i be now if You hadnt put them here with me? Oh, God. Help me not to walk when I can fly. Help me to help those around me fly as well. Amen.

ABBA FATHER, thank you for Jennie. I got her letters today and i just dont even know what to say. Shes just been such an influence in my life and she just keeps it up! Oh Jennie. Be with her as she strives so hard to do Your will. She wants so badly to live for You and be who You need her to be. Shes just... I couldnt ask for anyone better to look up to. And she'd probably say she has her flaws, but its that how You shine through us? Oh what wonderful works. Jennie is one of the most beautiful and fantastic people ive ever met. Thank You so much for her.

God, thanks for personal days. Thanks again for Elizabeth. Be with me tomorrow as i go back to school. And thank you for my not making the play. Because usually when that happens it opens up some other door and i get to do something bigger and better; i hope thats still the case. Be with our nation tomorrow on 9/11 as we remember.

I love music. I love friends. I love Jesus. I love Dr. Pepper. I love youth. I love jr high.

Help me to not screw up this Captive Free application. Help me to make it, if it be Your will. Which i really hope it is. Because i want it so bad.

I love You. Amen

So God, today i got to talk to Elizabeth for an hour and twenty five minutes, give or take. It was terrific. Youve truely blessed me with her. Shes at the point where she knows most of what i know, despite being two years younger, but she still needs a little advice and encouragement every now and then. Shes just what i need. She keeps me in check and makes me realize things about myself. Ive learned so much about her and about myself since weve started talking. Its unfathomable the things ive come to realize and will still come to realize as our relationship goes on. She gives me hope. Thank you so much for lettin it work out to where she and Alix can come see me on Sunday! Theyre such amazing kids. I know it sounds silly, but thank You for letting me be able to talk to them on the phone. You know how rare that is. Theyre really a blessing in my life. I love them more than they could know. Help me help them. I love You. Amen

God, i dont understand You. What is man that You are mindful of him, the son of man that You care for him?? What is it that ive done to have what i have? These friends, this HOME and FAMILY, my house and biological family, this school, all those people that love me so much and hold me and mold me into everything that I am? Why is it that i can and do know what its like to feel Your presence? Why am i worthy of that? Its Your love for what Youve created, i suppose. That boundless grace and mercy. That undeserved salvation You shower upon us day after day. I cant figure You out. But i dont need to. So heres my effort at childlike faith, honest praise, holy life, sacrifice, totally and completely unashamed love.

Thank you God for MUSIC. Also, thank you for Eric Whitaker, the greatest composer of our time. Amen

Dear Lord, WEEKEND. Stupid boys, go away. Best friends, i love them. Sarah has swine flu. Fix her please! English is eating souls. God save us poor AP kids. Much love, Abigail.

Jesus, HELP. Amen

A 'Hope'full Prayer.

Hey God. Thank you for this ever so lovely day, for my youth group and their antics. I love them.

Thank you for Hope. Thank you for our friendship. I'm glad that You've helped me past what issues I had with her because we're kind of pumped to do this good friend thing now. Thank You for helping us 'Breakthrough' that wall we had, that wall that kept us apart. My wall of Jealousy, of dislike and pride. It was quite silly, wasn't it? Quite. I'm hopeful about our future, to see where we go together. I can't wait till i get to make music with Hope, to praise You and Your wonderful creation. Be with Hope. And let hope be with me.

In hope,
Amen

A Sara(h) Prayer

Abba Father, Sarah just texted me. It made my week. We miss singing for/to you together. We're super pumped for Christmas. Thank you for my singing partner and unspeakably amazing friend. She takes me words away. Thank you for letting Sara get to Europe safely. And thank you for facebook chat. Thank you for my favorite counselor whos influenced me so much this summer. I can't fathom how different my life would be without her. Be with Sarah at Vandy and help her to have a stellar year. She was my very last counselor and holds a reallly special place in my heart. And shes so beautiful. Be with Sarah Anna and her ridiculously busy scheduel. Be with Sarah as she wants so badly to be back at the Village of Hope doin her work for you. Thank you so much for my best frann Sara. I need to thank you every single day for her presence in my life. Life is a precious gift and i think sometimes we forget that. I know I do. Thanks for my girls. I love them so much and You've blessed me so much through them. I miss every single one of them all day, every day.

The End

A Thank You

God, thank you for tiring days. For Bible discussions. For abstract art projects. For bringing swords and things to English when reading Beowulf. For amazing chapel kickoff weeks. For show and tell. For ridiculous lunch discussions. For cramming for Government tests. For Your wonderful gift of a cappella. For the last class of the day. For dinners with best friends and Calc teachers. For football games, even when we loose. For "Bananas." For "Attack!" For brownies. For texts from Elizabeth reminding me she loves me. For Jacob being the best high five buddy ever. Thanks.

Aaaaaaamen

A start.

Hey Jesus,

First off, Thanks for friends. Friends like Rick, Andrew, Rachel, Lawrence, Sara, Sara, Sarah, Sarah, Sarah, Jennie, Melissa, Alyssa, Mikayla, Kayla, Ingrid, Kristen, Lisa, Preston, Troy, Hannah, Meredith, Truett, Kristi, Ragan, Andy, Abbie, Alix, Elizabeth, Amanda, Amanda, Amanda, Amanda, Amber, Andrew, Angela, Angela, Bethany, Bethany, Bethany, Elena, Ashley, Ashley, Becca, Becca, Becca, Bonnie, Courtney, Emma, Emma, Natalie, Hannah, Whitney, Johnny, Hope, Rachel, Rachel, Jacob, Jacob, Jacob, Claire, Rhett, M.C., Maria, Morgan, Melanie, Christina, Christina, Melora, Michaelantonio, Missy, Paige, Shannon, and SO many more. They're Impossible to number.

Secondly, I don't like missing them. I know its part of life, but I really really really hate it. I hate not having them all right next to me, not getting to hug them and hold their hands whenever and whenever I want, not getting to cuddle, WORSHIPING with them, neglecting campers and sleeping in their beds, hanging out until dumb hours of the morning, and just being with them. I missing Singing with them, Crying with them, talking to them about everything, getting to know them. Im not content with phone calls, Text messages, Letters, and Facebook messages anymore. I want their faces. and I want them now. I miss the laughs, tears, confused looks, Judgmental looks that didnt actually judge you, looking at them like theyre the adorable little kid I babysit and they just did something dumb and cute. I miss everything about the ones Im not around. I thought i was ready to accept the end of summer. and I guess I am, but i wasnt ready for them to go back to real life and thus become wayyyy too removed from me. I just dont completely know how to handle it. I cant handle crying hardcore for 40 minutes, trembling. Maybe I'm just weak. Maybe its just me. But im just not okay with this pain, God. Take it from me if its your will.

Third, Be with Shockley. His dad died last night. And while Mr Shockley SR, is hangin out and kickin it with you, Shockles is one of the ones left behind. We know you mourn for him. Keep him safe and strong. And be with Rick as his life is coming back together after dumb highschool Drama. And Bethany and Ang are ridiculously busy. Keep them Sane.

Fourth, help me be a regular at this. I like it. I get less distracted. It gives me something tangible. Something to finish and focus on. It helps me out. Thanks for the idea, HS. :]]

Lastly, LOVE AND HELP.

In the words of Ingrid, PEACE OUT, JESUS.