Well God, i dont even know where to start with this weekend. Quake was off the hook. The kids, the fun, Jackie and Clarie, Luke, the other jr guides, everything was amazing. You were in all of it and just as abundant as ever. The clouds on the way back, the talks with people along the way, EVERYTHING, God. Just woah.thank you so so so much for makin my last CTK Quake an exceptionally terrific one. On a different note, El. Be with her as shes hurting and confused and lost. Thank you that she has Emily there to be there for her. You are truely a providing God. Help, save, comfort and defend her. Send us out with a passion for You and keep my heart on fire for you whether on the mountain, on the way down, at the bottom, or in the valleys. Thank You for the team members i got to talk to and for their encouraging words. You are tremendous. I love You.

Those were the best goodnights ive ever heard. They were supposed to be from over the past few weeks and stuff and the things that some people said... Saras and Justins especially got to me. They let it be known that they really hadnt seen Him that much, but how what we were doing and what that whole 22 hours was about was exactly what they had been needing. EXACTLY. Who are we that we should be allowed to affect lives? Our help comes from the Lord. Oh golly. There He was, chillin with a buncha kids around a fire in the cold, in the dark, in the woods. Showin Himself and how He is. He is WITH us. This was my tabernacle moment, if i think about it. God was never so clear to me as then. And Hes stayed, thank God. So heres my goodnight, 2009. I saw God in seeing God. Amen, Amen. Come Lord Jesus. This is most certainly true.

But i know i, at least, didnt go back the same this time. I didnt just go back refreshed and ready to love Jesus, i went back ready to change something. In my life. Hopefully in other peoples lives too. OONCE started a goodnights thread that means the world to us now. Were on vol IV since we keep adding people. Were just missing Keke, Haley, and Shamika. I love it and them so much. And i do goodnights with Jennie and Elizabeth and Emily everynight. That means so much. Because that way, even if we have the worst days, we challenge each other to find where God was in it. We know Hes there, we just gotta pay attention. Thats it. And the wilderness reunion. I think i was supposed to leave my notbook at home. It really didnt change that much of anything. It was the most laid back, yet REALLY EFFECTIVE worship ever. 13 of us, all but 3 being teenagers, stood around a campfire at the wilderness campsite in the middle of december in the freezing cold and listened to me and Bisuit talk on and on about why its important to see God outside of Lakeshore and how its okay to not, but its such a good thing. And then we did goodnights.

So 2009 was my Exodus. It wasnt about me, though. It wasnt about my going anywhere. It was about God making Himself known to me. Not that there were 400 metaphorical years of silence to come back from or anything, but i sure learned alot. The beginning of 2009 wasnt great. Grandpa died, Mel had hip surgery, i watched her hurt and recover. What i didnt see was how God was in that healing. I didnt see that God sat on that row with us during singing chapels and we had the best times of any chapels. I didnt see God in saying those desert island scriptures with such gusto. Now i see that He was sure as anything there, but then i sure didnt. And summer rolled around. And camp was great the first 2 weeks. But i had that 'thanks, God, for these awesome things' mentality. Senior high came, though. And with it, worship planning. Thats when it all started to change. We were talking about seeing God. God let me process and ramble on about how we need to be able to see Him and we need to let other people know that they have that opportunity. WOAH. So we passed out strings and told people what to think when they saw them. And then we all went back to our houses.